Monthly Archives: February 2011

How I Got Diagnosed with Unconscious Paranoid Schizophrenia


On Monday, with a forty-year history of depression, I was admitted to inpatient psychiatry in a suicidal state.  On Wednesday, my psychiatrist went on holiday, leaving me in the care of Dr. Jane Kou.  She had not seen me in … Continue reading

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Anna the Embed: How I Got Diagnosed with Narcissism (Part V)


The Embed is moving on to her main diagnosis:  major depressive disorder, severe and recurrent.             But I have bipolar disorder, type II!  I’ve had it for forty-two years, I tell the Embed.             No, she says, I didn’t see … Continue reading

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Anna the Embed: How I Got Diagnosed with Narcissism (Part IV)


None of these places will investigate your complaint and find in your favor.  Last year seven thousand citizens in this county filed complaints against their doctors; only four hundred were upheld.  Reality is this: you cannot change the world, nor … Continue reading

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Anna the Embed: How I Got Diagnosed with Narcissism (Part III)


            The Embed doesn’t want to hear it.  If I am alone, it is my fault.  It is not the fault of a parachute that didn’t open, a doctor who didn’t know what she was doing, or wisdom that caused … Continue reading

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Anna the Embed: How I Got Diagnosed with Narcissism (Part II)


            The only reason for giving someone a diagnosis is in order to treat.  If you’re not going to treat, then it’s just name-calling.  Generally speaking, I refuse the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder but I will accept it if … Continue reading

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Anna the Embed: How I Got Diagnosed with Narcissism (Part I)


            Today I am sitting in the Waiting Room of the Outpatient Clinic in the Department of Psychiatry in the Upstate Medical University Hospital of the State University of New York—they are a self-important clan, these OC/DP/UMUH/SUNY people, and they … Continue reading

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Saving Your Sanity Yourself


I have been reading Jeannette Bartha’s blog, “Multiple Personalities Don’t Exist,” a cogent, well-informed, well-written collection of thoughts about multiple personality disorder, currently called dissociative identity disorder (DID).  (http://jeanettebartha.wordpress.com/author/jeanettebartha/)  It reminds me of a workshop on recovery that I attended a … Continue reading

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