Category Archives: patient

A Search for the Roses


I am dreaming that Melia and I are wandering around downtown, particularly in the Armory Square section, where there are outdoor vendors.  Down every little alley, in small brick courtyards and on fire escapes there are people selling hand sewn … Continue reading

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The Discharge Non-Plan (Part I)


I wake in the pre-dawn darkness.  It is spring.  The windows are open and the birdsong is heard.  I dread this day, as I now dread all days. In the hospital I was on total bed rest.  Staff emptied my … Continue reading

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Instant Sanka Made with Tap Water is not Coffee


R. N. Katy is one of the badies.  She has been working nights here for about two decades.  She had a reputation for being rigid, morally judgmental, and sitting in the nurses’ station reading her bible.  I slept most nights … Continue reading

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Saturday 20 April, Continued


Last night at 6:20 p.m. I called the nurses’ station and asked when supper would be served.  I was told that it had been served at 6:00 p.m.  When I asked why my tray had not been brought, there was … Continue reading

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Thursday 18 April, Continued


Every time I sleep—nap or nighttime—I wake dreaming of 3-6.  This time I dream I am filled with pus.  I write to get it out of me and into the hands of people who can implement change. Thursday 18 April, continued: … Continue reading

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Words Written and Unwritten


So, on Thursday 18 April, on Unit 3-6, the inpatient psychiatric unit of St. Joseph’s Hospital, I re-discovered writing.  I had something to say and no computer, so I picked up a pen and set it to paper.  I stopped … Continue reading

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God Sightings


My church, Isaiah’s Table, has a board where we put Post-Its noting the moments when we have seen God.  Here are some of my Post-Its: On the Observation Unit at St. Joseph’s Hospital, I asked for and got a Holy … Continue reading

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