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About annecwoodlen

I am a tenth generation American, descended from a family that has been working a farm that was deeded to us by William Penn. The country has changed around us but we have held true. I stand in my grandmother’s kitchen, look down the valley to her brother’s farm and see my great-great-great-great-great-grandmother Hannah standing on the porch. She is holding the baby, surrounded by four other children, and saying goodbye to her husband and oldest son who are going off to fight in the Revolutionary War. The war is twenty miles away and her husband will die fighting. We are not the Daughters of the American Revolution; we were its mothers. My father, Milton C. Woodlen, got his doctorate from Temple University in the 1940’s when—in his words—“a doctorate still meant something.” He became an education professor at West Chester State Teachers College, where my mother, Elizabeth Hope Copeland, had graduated. My mother raised four girls and one boy, of which I am the middle child. My parents are deceased and my siblings are estranged. My fiancé, Robert H. Dobrow, was a fighter pilot in the Marine Corps. In 1974, his plane crashed, his parachute did not open, and we buried him in a cemetery on Long Island. I could say a great deal about him, or nothing; there is no middle ground. I have loved other men; Bob was my soul mate. The single greatest determinate of who I am and what my life has been is that I inherited my father’s gene for bipolar disorder, type II. Associated with all bipolar disorders is executive dysfunction, a learning disability that interferes with the ability to sort and organize. Despite an I.Q. of 139, I failed twelve subjects and got expelled from high school and prep school. I attended Syracuse University and Onondaga Community College and got an associate’s degree after twenty-five years. I am nothing if not tenacious. Gifted with intelligence, constrained by disability, and compromised by depression, my employment was limited to entry level jobs. Being female in the 1960’s meant that I did office work—billing at the university library, calling out telegrams at Western Union, and filing papers at a law firm. During one decade, I worked at about a hundred different places as a temporary secretary. I worked for hospitals, banks, manufacturers and others, including the county government. I quit the District Attorney’s Office to manage a gas station; it was more honest work. After Bob’s death, I started taking antidepressants. Following doctor’s orders, I took them every day for twenty-six years. During that time, I attempted%2

A Search for the Roses


I am dreaming that Melia and I are wandering around downtown, particularly in the Armory Square section, where there are outdoor vendors.  Down every little alley, in small brick courtyards and on fire escapes there are people selling hand sewn … Continue reading

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CPEP, Again


Fred commented on How to Complain: About CPEP I also have a complaint about stony brook. I was having some anxiety issues, issues that I was assuming were anxiety issuses. I went to the e.r. To get some idea of why … Continue reading

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An Unsolicited Testimonial


caputo commented on Complaint against Roger Levine, M.D. I just wanted to say that I have come to the realization that St Joe’s is the worst psychiatric hospital in the world. When my husband spent Dec 2012 and Jan 2013 on … Continue reading

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The Discharge Non-Plan (Part I)


I wake in the pre-dawn darkness.  It is spring.  The windows are open and the birdsong is heard.  I dread this day, as I now dread all days. In the hospital I was on total bed rest.  Staff emptied my … Continue reading

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Instant Sanka Made with Tap Water is not Coffee


R. N. Katy is one of the badies.  She has been working nights here for about two decades.  She had a reputation for being rigid, morally judgmental, and sitting in the nurses’ station reading her bible.  I slept most nights … Continue reading

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The Levine Syndrome


Again, as I lay on the bare mattress, I was asked what I needed.  Again, I asked them to make the bed.  The other girl said, “But you’re in it.”  Amber snapped, “I’m not going to play this game with you!” … Continue reading

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Saturday 20 April, Continued


Last night at 6:20 p.m. I called the nurses’ station and asked when supper would be served.  I was told that it had been served at 6:00 p.m.  When I asked why my tray had not been brought, there was … Continue reading

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Thursday 18 April, Continued


Every time I sleep—nap or nighttime—I wake dreaming of 3-6.  This time I dream I am filled with pus.  I write to get it out of me and into the hands of people who can implement change. Thursday 18 April, continued: … Continue reading

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Words Written and Unwritten


So, on Thursday 18 April, on Unit 3-6, the inpatient psychiatric unit of St. Joseph’s Hospital, I re-discovered writing.  I had something to say and no computer, so I picked up a pen and set it to paper.  I stopped … Continue reading

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Kyle Sibley, Licensed Clinical Social Worker (Part II)


You’re supposed to have a social work assessment during the first 24 hours you’re on Unit 3-6.  I never got one.  The reason I wanted one was because I thought I might get treated better if the staff knew, for … Continue reading

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